It really is the final countdown. The last day. Things will never be the same after tomorrow. Any way I choose to see or say it, life changes tomorrow.
Kasen Cross Tiger will arrive via C-Section sometime between 9 & 10am Friday, June 1, 2012. My heart is all aflutter as my arms eagerly await the new bundle of joy to love on.
Still, I know today will either fly by or creep along. I will feel like I didn’t get everything done, and I’m pretty certain that not much rest will be had tonight. So imagine my delight when I read my devotion earlier:
“Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.”
Even though my C-Section is scheduled, I believe it is the best option for my and Kasen’s safety, and I have full confidence in my doctor’s ability to deliver Kasen successfully, there is still anxiety clinging to my thoughts. The what if’s and uncertainties are not easy to shake off. How glad I am that when I am weak, He is strong. I will need that strength not only tomorrow, but most surely in the days, weeks, and months ahead as I adjust to life as a mother of two darling boys.
So I will pour out my heart, I will pour out my soul, trusting in God’s grace and provision. I will seek rest in Him instead of relying on my comfy fort of pillows that have been my bed fellows for the past 9 months. I will rejoice in the great gift God has given when we hold our sweet new baby boy and know that God will continue to guide our journey, one step at a time.